ohk......m writing it on 12 oct...last three days left...a little nervous..dont know..hv tried all i could.
feeling a little down may be..i mean thoda sa wiered..its just few hours..
last 3 days between me n my passion..
i chose this exam, coz i wanted to prepare 4 it..wanted 2 c my endurance n my passion..
last 3 days of effort which ill remember 4ever...last 3 days of understanding what i could never get till now...
time 2 right all my wrongs, time to gather all my energies, knowledge n skills....time 2 remember how much i actually want it...
time 2 consolidate, 2 assimilate..time to make dad proud.
u never need a second chance in life...coz if u were gud nuff ...ull never need it..
every1 has fears...but courage is what u need...courage to accept that it matters ...courage to accept your fears..courage to move on...n get to work..u prepare 4 1 day...not to be afraid of failures...but to make memories of ur success..
remembering a time as ur very best....best efforts ,lots of passion n no exscuses...
just go 4 it...
Time is here ,Time is now....what u had been waiting for so long...give God the chance to bless u....he really luves u...n all this is so that u can learn ur lessons in life.
everything b4 this n after this doesnt matter...
sum1 said 2 me ..my life doesnt depend on this exam....i know..its not a question of my life ...or any fears of career...i know god will lead me where it wants to take me.......its just about my passion for thing...a test for me that how much can i want a thing...n how much can i put in to achieve it....its just the matter of being the best i can...to discover my best is my journey...n somehow i feel i have that in me....m still not saturated n i still have it in me...to go to that edge n come out of my comfort zone..to actually do it..
its 4 me , by me.
i can be better...n i will be 4 sure...3 days to improve ...just 3 days to prove.
some ppl give up their dreams when they are about to reach the end....n some ppl give it all they have n also what they never knew they had 4 that last effort..that counts.
god thank you soooooooo much...found my direction....n plzzz plzzz plzzz bless me ...n just be with me like u always do...m ur chid n this effort is dedicated to u....

Its 10.30 ...n ill write 4 10 mns...
2day was a kind of ideal day...hmmm woke up at 6..studied 4 2 hrs..then work ..came back studied . took date as 5 oct..listened 2 goljan for 2 hrs..felt nice.

hv realized 1 thing that so far i hv been really spineless..y do i need an escape..y cant i just commit..its like i always runaway when it comes 2 commiting 2 nething..no more jack of all trades..its all about eggs n ham..n yeah m ready n m COMMITED...wont postpone nething ..vil stick 2 this ..
my best ..no fear at all..life has bigger things than this..this atleast i can handle pretty easily.
I took my time..nw I m ready...no more excuses nemore...let no1 bother me..
ill PROTECT my time .
ITS OK .

revised virology n 1 more lec frm goljan...nw calling it a day.
no more studies after 12.

decided wont make ne excuse from now on
1 gud thing so far- only 2 cups of caffeine so far ....n no caffeine after 6.00pm..so i dont turn into an owl on her graveyard shift.
listened -
Coagulation disorder n CNS
Acid n Base
sumhow i hv started luking fwd 2 my bchem breaks...this idea is working..revising only few pages of bchem ---ratta is much easy.
took a wikiprep test---wow GOT 90% against avg 73%.....PSEUDOSATISFACTION :) ;)

WAT ELSE TO DO-
might listen to neoplasia goljan n if my ears din hurt GI physio.

Seeking relief from the flu, this patient self-medicated with tetracycline, which was originally prescribed for his son's acne vulgaris. Expired tetracycline is a known cause of Fanconi's syndrome, a hereditary or acquired disorder of the proximal tubule of the kidney. This leads to defective transport of certain substrates, including glucose, amino acids, sodium, potassium, phosphate, uric acid, and bicarbonate. Characteristic findings include glucosuria, phosphaturia, proteinuria, polyuria, dehydration, hypercalciuria, and hypokalemia. Bicarbonate wasting can lead to renal tubular acidosis, while phosphate wasting can disrupt vitamin D metabolism and bone mineralization. This can result in rickets or impaired growth in children, and osteomalacia, osteoporosis, and pathologic fractures in adults.

well 2day was the day of indulgence...chocolate ,cola n starch. went shopping ...felt gud.
my application got cleared n i hv thought to ride the beast on 29 sept.so its my date with destiney.
thought a lot....dunno y was too scared today..to take the exam..so thought vil get done with it asap.
just had 1 cup of caffeine 2day...gud !
vil declutter and organise my desk.
efficient study
vil go 2 library 2mrw
High Yield-PHYSIO N PATH EASY 2 SCORE -PHARMA N MICRO
topics 2 stress
ENDO- PHYSIO done
RENAL-physio n path
NEURO-PHARMA N PATH
RESP-PHYSIO

This patient is most likely suffering from primary sclerosing cholangitis which is commonly associated with ulcerative colitis. In PSC, the both the intra- and extra-hepatic bile ducts are affected causing strictures. In the cholangiogram this is noted by the alternating strictures and dilated portions of the ducts. In PSC (and UC) there is a often an increase in the p-ANCA antibody (option E). The only definitive treatment is liver transpla
this test i got 75% ..average was 69%..a little better.

JC virus is a ubiquitous polyomavirus that causes progressive multifocal leukoencephalopathy (PML). PML is associated with severely immunocompromised states. Most cases are seen in patients with AIDS. The disease can have a very rapid course, progressing over days or weeks. A CD4 count less than 100 is an especially poor prognostic sign in these patients. Characteristic histologic findings include giant astrocytes, and oligodendrocytes with enlarged nuclei and nuclear inclusions. Radiographic findings include numerous white matter lesions of varying sizes in the cerebral and cerebellar hemispheres. Answer (A)
2. ureter -water under the bridge.

1. Protect my time
2.Discipline
3.less caffeine
4.Be my best
5.efficiency

time 2 have fun....happy studying !

overslept today :(
got my senses back...took a wikiprep test...scored 70% still less than their average..lots of work need to be done .

well 5 cups of caffeine already inside my system....will try n reduce my daily dose.
its going f9 so far..FINALLY finished endo..learnt a lot of new things..never gave this topic much importance in medical school..always ran through it ,so gave it much needed attention n time ..was long due. 10 hrs lectures...n sight of my earphones actually make me feel sick...no more lectures 4 sumtime.
phyiso is like a typical girl...takes a long time to figure her out..but once u have done it...what seems like a complication become simple logical thinking.i love it bcoz u dont have to learn anything....u just read n know it.
revised a little micro also FA..n carb metab frm Bchm.
had planned 2 sleep by now...but caffeine is working overtime...will spend sumtime wid pharma .....guess 2day s the day 4 the graveyard shift..
cardiac is the system of choice 4 2day,lets c how much my brain can handle.....whats heart ,just a muscle afterall.:)

Woke up late today...heard physio lectures endocrino...after sumtime vil listen to the rest.
plans-
1. 2hrs bchem- morning(the 1 i missed 2day)
2.physio lecture(3-4 hrs)
3.revise micro-1 hr to refresh my mind.
4.path goljan lec
5. Revise pharma b4 i crash on my bed.

Its not a blog...its my journal.
A friend, a witness ,a companinon.
Its the last phase of my this journey.
Lots of emotions,passion and dreams are at stake.
so here goes my story....